Confession of My Heart...

I was driving home (well to my mom's) and its a 4 hour drive so I always use this time to pray.  I have had somethings that I have been needing to change within myself.  You know something you NEVER want to REALLY admit that you have a problem with.  So on my drive I was praying and just thinking about a few things, talking with God and this song came on the radio, I have NEVER heard it before...but I can tell you that it "hit me like a ton of bricks" when I heard the words.  Discovering  or admitting your "hidden sin" is NO fun, but the growth that will happen within you after you admit it, then repent will be well worth it.

"My Own Little World" - Matthew West

In my own little world it hardly ever rains
I’ve never gone hungry or always felt safe
I got some money in my pocketshoes on my feet
In m own little world
Population me


I try to stay awake through the Sunday morning church
I throw a twenty in the plate but I never give ’til it hurts
and I turn off the news when I don’t like what I see
it’s easy to do when it’s population me


What if there’s a bigger picture
what if I’m missing out
What if there’s a greater purpose
I could be living right now
outside my own little world

Stopped at the red light, looked out my window
Outside the car, saw a sign, said “Help this homeless widow”
Just above this sign was the face of a human
I thought to myself, “God, what have I been doing?”
So I rolled down my window and I looked her in the eye
Oh how many times have I just passed her by
I gave her some money then I drove on through
in my own little world there’s Population two

What if there’s a bigger picture
what if I’m missing out
What if there’s a greater purpose
I could be living right now
outside my own little world

Start breaking my heart for what breaks Yours
give me open hands and open doors
put Your light in my eyes and let me see
that my own little world is not about me

Selfishness is something we never want to confession we are, but I think that each of us has a little in us.  I have come to realize my "little " is actually "a lot". 

I found some great scriptures that talk about selfishness and I needed to read everyone of them.

Psalm 119:36
Turn my heart towards your statutes and not towards selfish gain.

Proverbs 18:1
An unfriendly man pursues selfish ends: he defies all sound judgement.

Phillipians 1:17
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit but in humility consider others better than yourselves.

James 3:14
But if you harbor bitter envy and self ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth.

James 3:16
For where you have envy and self ambition there you find disorder and every evil practice.

Phillipians 2:3-4
Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humitlity of mind let each of you regard one another as more important than himself; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interest of others.

Dear Lord, Please create in me a clean heart. Show me the sin within my heart. Forgive me for being selfish towards the people I love and most of all you.  Please help me to be more like you and to be aware of the oppportunites I have to improve in my life. Thank you for you unconditional love and allowing me to repent and forgiving me no matter what.   Help me to realize it NOT JUST POPULATION ME.   In Jesus Name.