Social Media,taking responsibility for my WORDS! :)

Social Media is a place to connect with people you know and don't know. A place to post photos, update your statuses, vent, and keep up with everyone and their dog.

It can also be a place of drama and negativity.  For me personally, it is so  easy to write the negative instead of sharing the positive.  I have experienced this first hand.

As most of you know,  I have been going through quite a bit of my own personal stuff.  Last year I had a very tough pregnancy, hard labor, child birth and recovery.  On top of all that I was diagnosed with postpartum depression and anxiety. Then in case that wasn't enough, my husband fell 12 ft off a ladder, broke his leg, and shattered his left knee. A very tough time for my family.

But before actually giving birth to Channing, getting diagnosed with postpartum, and Keith breaking his leg, I was already on an emotional  roller coaster and I certainly expressed every feeling I had, good or bad, on Facebook. Not the best thing to do.

I absolutely have the right to feel the way I do, am even completely justified in those feelings, and certainty can write about my feelings where I want and when I want - like Facebook and Twitter, right? Not so fast...!

So one day, after complaining about everything I could think of and expressing  my feelings to the world via Facebook, I felt convicted.  I felt God tell me that I needed to apologize.  

Wow, really God? Do I have to? I mean I only wrote how I felt?

"Yes, you do. You are a child of God and with that comes responsibility for your words and actions.  You are called to be a light in the darkness. You need to be uplifting. There are power in your words."

I actually had someone delete me because my posts were depressing. I cried for two days afterward.  But, I also believe God used that to show me that what I write has an effect on people.  I want it to be the right effect, a positive one. To be able to share God's power and love.  People certainly need those words more than they need to read about me having a bad day.  Plus, on those days I feel like writing the negative but I choose a scripture instead - it uplifts me, too.

So I apologized to Facebook.  I had many people say that I didn't have to and/or that they appreciated my honesty. I really felt like I had to do it. And truthfully, I felt so much better after I did.

This post is by no means to tell you that you shouldn't write what you're feeling.  Just remember that many people see what you write and I don't know about you, but I want them to be encouraged not discouraged by the words of my posts.

Proverbs 18:21 (AMP)

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they who indulge in it shall eat the fruit of it [for death or life]."

Ephesians 4:29 ESV

Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.

Proverbs 16:24 ESV

Gracious words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the body.

Proverbs 12:18 ESV

There is one whose rash words are like sword thrusts, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.

Matthew 12:36 ESV

I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak,

Psalm 19:14 ESV

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.

Proverbs 17:27 ESV

Whoever restrains his words has knowledge, and he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding.

I know that I will always be tempted to post the negative things, but I hope that I am able to show God's love, pray for and minister to those in need.  For that's the person I want to be.

~Vicki~

In place I thought I would never be...

This post is very hard for me to write, but I feel like it will help me & maybe others. It's very hard for me to be this open & personal.

My story:

When I found out I was pregnant with my second baby, I never thought my life would be filled with anything other than joy.

My pregnancy was a difficult one, horrible morning sickness, early contractions, & 3 months of bed-rest. The day I had her I lost so much blood I need a blood transfusion & became severely anemic. This was only the beginning of an emotional roller coaster.

I knew that things would be harder with two children vs one..but it was more than that. I just felt different. Detached would be the word.

Fast forward to November 2012 (Channing was born in April) I decided I need to see a doctor with my concerns of how I was feeling. THREE days BEFORE my husband fell 12 ft off a ladder & broke his leg, I was diagnosed with postpardum depression & anxiety.

"Postpartum depression is moderate to severe depression in a woman after she has given birth. It may occur soon after delivery or up to a year later. Most of the time, it occurs within the first 3 months after delivery."

I was put on some medication for it. Well, two months go by & and I felt a 100 times worse. The medicine had a reverse reaction.

So just a little over a month ago, I started some new medication & seem to be doing better. It's still very hard & the guilt that I have to take anything at all, is hard. But, being healthy for my family is number one. So I am going trusting in God to get me through.

I had many people praying during my pregnancy & had a few words from God given to me, & I am hanging on to those. I have hope & faith. Some days my faith is very little, other days it's a big as a mountain.

Here are a few words I know were meant for me. I want to share.

(When I read this one, I stopped at the part were it said "ten weeks" & looked at my calendar..& it had been exactly ten weeks to the day, that Keith broke his leg)

1/23/13
SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS:

Stop and discern. Realize that you have stepped into a new spiritual flow. You are leaving behind the chaos and difficulty of the past ten weeks, and you will now have greater freedom and clarity. You will be able to deal more effectively with any trauma you sustained in that period of transition. I am releasing you into an anointing of ease if you will receive it by faith, says the Lord.

John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."


Faith Tabernacle
February 6, 2013
SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS:

Take the opportunities you are given to regroup. The battle has been fierce, and your fight has taken a lot of energy both spiritually and naturally. Now is the time when you can be renewed and restored. Stop and consider where you have been and where you are going to regain perspective. Draw near to Me, says the Lord, for I am your place of strength and safety in troubling times.

Psalms 18:2 The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

I really hope to write on a regular basis on this blog, to help me with my healing process.

I have a feeling most of my friends figured this out on their own. I am working on keeping my feelings off of Facebook, & trying to be positive.

Please if you would, continue to pray for me & my family during this time in our lives, thank you!!

Vicki