On my mind...

I read a blog today of someone I don't know, but lost her beautiful little 3 yr daughter in 2007 & I've been in tears all day......( & praying for her) ........& have also been hugging & kissing Rylee much more ( if that's possible) & now I'm watching her sleep!! I'm BEYOND blessed to have her in my life!! TREASURE every moment your given!!

Know you what it is to be a child?…
It is to believe in love, to believe in loveliness, to believe in belief;

it is to be so little that the elves can reach to whisper in your ear,

it is to turn pumpkins into coaches,

and mice into horses,

lowness into loftiness,

and nothing into everything,

for each child has its fairy godmother in its soul.

– Francis Thompson

Career Woman to Housewife/Mommy....

I never actually wanted children, I always said I would work & be successful!   Then at the age of 25 I became pregnant & everything changed for me,but unfortunately I miscarried at 4 1/2 months which was devastating.   That pregnancy was not planned & at the time I was not married!   After that experience it would be 8 yrs before my life would be truly complete! I married my husband 4 yrs after the miscarriage  ( the same person I was with at that time)& we decided to wait a while before planning to have a family.......but my every thought was consumed with having a baby.  When we finally decided to try and I was so discouraged during the process, but my 90 yr old granny said something profound to me " when your heart & your mind line up you will get pregnant", oh how she knew me well!!   For I had some things to work on with me before it would happen!  I always thought it would be so easy once we started, I mean it is easy for everyone else, but the difference for me is GOD has my life totally & completely in his hands & he was the only one that knew the right time for me!

(2 years later).........And then there was Rylee!!!  Words can not explain the most precious gift from GOD that I was to receive on December 10, 2008.   My world & what I thought about everything "completely" changed! It was like for the 1st time in my life I felt whole!  How could I have not ever wanted this??   She is the sweetest little baby in the world, with the cutest personality I know!  Becoming a mother would exceed any job or career I could ever have!

As far as my career, which was 10 yrs in Property Management (traveling & moving for the job) would just be over just like that!  The stress, the money, the recognition & my work friendships!  What a difference becoming a " stay @ home mommy"  would be!   Motherhood is by far harder than any apartment complex & staff  I have ever been in charge of! Instead of starting my day off with staff meetings, eviction letters & phone calls from upper management, it now was VERY early morning feedings, stinky diapers, feeling absolutely exhausted from NO sleep!  Loads of laundry, dishes & housework that I had a "good" excuse from not always getting done before,  which was " I work" just like you do ( I would say to Keith).  Oh & cooking " what me, are you crazy", I'm WAY to exhausted from work...lol!  That's funny I thought I was "tired" then!

Well, my job was "easy" compared to trying to get everything done with a small one in the house & I have to say " honestly" it's take about 1 yr to fill like I'm getting the hang of being a "housewife".  I do occasionally miss my office & having adult conversation & writing that hard " monthly owner's letter" but I wouldn't trade getting to spend everyday waking up to the prettiest smile in the world, Rylee pulling my hair saying "momma"...trying to wake me up @ the crack of dawn!  I call her my little "rooster"...lol!

So even though I don't bring in the $$$ anymore & use my brain  @ an office, I am happy about my choice to finally become a " Mother"!

And by the way.....we are trying for #2!!

My Photoshoot..

My sister took these photos of me and I just got a little creative with them. I was in deperate need of some new photos. So here I am...lol!

Good Read..

http://proverbs31devotions.blogspot.com/2010/01/at-crossroads.html


http://proverbs31devotions.blogspot.com/2009/10/how-can-i-make-my-prayer-life-come.html

Good Afternoon...

I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus,. Phil 3:14

365 Days..

Well, I have decided to read my bible in a year. I have attempted to do this many times and I have found that it's not the easiest thing at all, I mean all the crazy long names and places in Genesis alone is enough to make anyone yawn. But, I prayed to the Lord to please help me be completely focus and to understand what I was reading! Of course I am on day 11 and it's going pretty good.


I have a list of things that I need to do this year...these are NOT in order ;o)!

1. Wean Rylee and get her sleeping in her bed.
2. Read the bible in a year.
3. Start writing in my journal about what GOD is taking me through, and this blog of course.
4. Find a church...
5. Start singing ( for this is one of my GOD given talents) possibly at church or where the lord leads me too.
6. Pray daily for my husband.
7. Read a book called Rees Howells -Intercessor, I read this book while at YWAM (Youth With A Mission) back in 1994 and it was amazing and really makes you think. I am about to order it.
8. Increase my daily time with GOD and my prayer time. I am an intercessor and will pray at the drop of a hat when he ask...but, really I want to get in DEEPER with GOD.
9. Find what my callings are and act on them.
10. Clean my house more often ;o)
11. Learn to cook more things.
12. Take a photography class.
13. Lose 30lbs
14. Stop drinking Dr.Pepper
15. Make new friends for me and Rylee.
16. More kids????
17. Relax & be less serious.
18. Be less defensive.
19. Learn to sew.
20. Spend less time on facebook.
21. Take Rylee to MOPS ( mothers of preschoolers)
23. Get really good @ Photo shop.
24. Spend more time with my brother .
25. And the rest of my family.
26. Exercise & get in great shape.

to be continued.....

Please as you read this blog, keep me in your prayers! Thank you :o)

Family Guy - Lois Mom Mum Mommy

I don't watch this show but this is SO funny!!

New Blog

I decided to start a new blog for many reasons & hope that I can keep up with it :0). I did pray about what to call it & got ”Sweet Release" , which for me means that I am releasing my will so God can do his. God is working on me & it's not always easy but the final outcome will be amazing & doing this blog will help me keep track of my growth. I will be writing about everyday life, things God reveals to me, mommy stuff ( which I’m still new at ) & of course I will be posting some of my photography. I pray that God uses me through this blog & my readers will be blessed :0)!

P.S. - I still have the one for Rylee & will continue to update it!