I am sitting at my kitchen table with a million and one things on my brain. I tried to take a nap earlier (horrible headache) and I could NEVER relax. It got me thinking about my "sleep issues", I have suffered with insomnia my entire life and really still don't know why. Its hard to NEVER feel rested and being an OVER- thinker doesn't help either. I am going to try to list all the things I am concerned with or thinking about...maybe doing this will help. I probably should write this in my journal, but Rylee would never let me do that!
1. House Remodel - We are in the stages of trying to accomplish this and really NEED prayer for something's. This is something that needs to happen, we have really outgrown our house and when we purchased it, it was with the intent to remodel it ASAP....! Fast forward to 5 years later and RYLEE...! The floorplan has never been functional and a change really needs to be made.
2. Losing weight- I need to lose at least 30lbs, which would put me at a great weight that I am comfortable with. The thing is, I have lost my baby weight a LONG time ago (all 29lbs of it), but I was about 25lbs overweight when before I got pregnant. And we all know I am not getting yonger and that its harder to lose the older you get....YIKES! Now, I just need to decide how I want to achieve my goal. I have considered ordering AdvoCare, but I think I might try Dr. Oz You: On A Diet- I have heard good things about it and I am not to fond of pills...! So starting next week...fruits, veggies, chicken and fish will be on my plate, along with WATER (no Dr. Pepper..boo-hoo). So WISH ME LUCK and say a prayer that I can do it.
3. Another Baby- hmmmmmmmmm, I know that we want one. When I decided to have kids I always said TWO would be perfect for me, a girl and boy (everyone's thoughts), BUT what IF I have twins...VERY possible. I will give that one to GOD. Rylee is almost 2 and that is a good age gap and again....I am NOT getting ANY younger! I am already considered "high risk" at 35! I really don't see wanting them farther apart in age....so I guess we better start talking about this one. (HOUSE REMODEL)
4. Spiritual - I am not really where I want or need to be in this area. Then again most of us never are. I am TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH GOD and I am an intercessor and PRAY ALL THE TIME, but find it difficult to read my bible everyday. Also, I am still searching for a church...not really hard...I might add. A few weeks ago, I did go to a Cowboys for Jesus church right down the road and its NOT for me! So the search will continue..its something I really need to do.
5. My Photography- As you know, I started
Tin Bucket Photograhy and so far its going REALLY SLOW, which is what I expected considering I have a 21 month old little girl and I am a stay at home mommy. I did have 2 appointments a couple of weeks ago that I was excited about, but neither worked out...and I understood why but, was a little disappointed. There is always next time. Anyway, I know that I want to do this for a long time and it will eventually happen. I am lacking inspiration lately, and with this heat....UGH, who wants to sweat to death...NOT ME.
6. Motherhood - I have to say that its not easy being a mommy to my ALMOST 2 yr old. Her little personality is SHINING through and MOOD SWINGS...hahaha ( where oh where does she get those from...lol). I love every minute of it...even though I AM EXHAUSTED!!! She is now talking...saying MANY words...which the word "ICE" is our favorite...(ADORABLE) and "TRACTOR" is a close second, Currently teething, 4 teeth and we are not enjoying it to much, sleeping in her own bed (I'm still on the floor beside her...come on mommy...let go...haha), completely weaned...WOO-HOO, (I miss the closeness, but not the act), tonight she opened the bathroom door for the 1st time- WATCH OUT, absolutely LOVES shoes, purses, jewelry and clothes (like her mommy), oh and the LOOKS she started giving me this week...I have to say she gave me one of "my looks" and I was like OH NO :O), and taking off her diaper and going to the bathroom to sit on her potty chair and MUST have the door closed...! She does it in her diaper about 5 minutes before we get to the bathroom, but she says "pee-pee" so she knows. I LOVE RYLEE RAE! How will I handle another one...makes me nervous thinking about it.
7. I feel like I am writing a Let's Talk! Tuesday..HAHA! Something I do every Tuesday for my sister's blog.
Is that you Lord. (take a look).
8. Many, many, many more things, but this is all I have the energy to write. No one is going to read this but me..anyway.
So, I hope I can sleep after typing all this...!
Sweet Dreams..I hope!